confusion

i love him, i love you
confused to what my heart will do
choosing him or choosing you
he wants me, you want me too
follow my heart, follow my dream
wrongs seems right as wrong can seem
tempting ,shiny, glisten ,gleam
slowly undoing every seam
i love you, i love him
hope you're more than just a gem
almost giving up on him
loving you ,yet loving him
wonder why ,i hide it all
waiting tensely for the fall
slowly breaking down a wall
growing slowly till I'm tall
wonder why but you're still there
hope out loud but i'm still here
dream of us, wonder where
hold my hand ,life to share
looking up ,then glancing down
see your face, start to drown
have a smile, try a frown
put on make up, be a clown
it's a choice, i must choose
you, afraid, i may lose
but if him i somehow lost
i'm sure that i would pay a cost
forever second place you'll be
unless he turns and runs from me
i love you ,do you love me?
a question answered i will see.