not yet?

running out of breath yet?
running out of steam?
falling over dead yet?
you're ripping at the seams.

looking up at me yet?
staring at the sky?
lying on the ground yet?
you thought i would be shy.

no one's saved you yet?
crawling down to you?
no one's helped you yet?
there's nothing you can do.

melt

staring up at the perfect image
my face still in awe and in wonder.
wishing to touch the figure of perfection
to climb up through the glass I'm under.
standing still in complete amazement
melting on the window above me
the beautiful image smooth and white
running from inside blood i can see.
breaking above me, death dripping down
black, screaming silence, covering
laying down, now sleeping
no other life still near hovering.

to my best friends

friends may be a world apart
in distance or in mind
but through it all i love you still
the best kind i can find.

the i told you so's the laughs in the face
they hurt but you were right
next time i might listen
i'll put up less of a fight.

i miss the school year past
only for one reason
i miss you jessie darling
this is so your season.

ali dear you're still close by
i want to thank you much
you smile and lift me up
my life you're able to touch.

you both are great i love you so
i doubt you'll understand
that the friendship between us
must always stand.

hopefully sometime soon
we'll all be back together
best friends till the end
going on forever.

guardian angel

when i dream i soar
in my flight high above
the world which contains
the one that i love.

i watch while he sleeps
such peace in my sight
to see him so calm
in a room with no light.

a guardian angel
can be my name
but just like a lover
i love you the same.

steering your pathway
to avoid every pain
knowing you cant see me
it drives me insane.

forever in silence
i still will love you
and you'll never know it
when i want you to.

you will never meet me
though i'll always be here
someday someone "perfect"
for you will appear.

if only you could see me
you would spare a deepest pain
to only know i love you
to see me help you gain.

i wing my fight of love
over you i fly
to protect and keep you
until the day you die.

confusion

i love him, i love you
confused to what my heart will do
choosing him or choosing you
he wants me, you want me too
follow my heart, follow my dream
wrongs seems right as wrong can seem
tempting ,shiny, glisten ,gleam
slowly undoing every seam
i love you, i love him
hope you're more than just a gem
almost giving up on him
loving you ,yet loving him
wonder why ,i hide it all
waiting tensely for the fall
slowly breaking down a wall
growing slowly till I'm tall
wonder why but you're still there
hope out loud but i'm still here
dream of us, wonder where
hold my hand ,life to share
looking up ,then glancing down
see your face, start to drown
have a smile, try a frown
put on make up, be a clown
it's a choice, i must choose
you, afraid, i may lose
but if him i somehow lost
i'm sure that i would pay a cost
forever second place you'll be
unless he turns and runs from me
i love you ,do you love me?
a question answered i will see.